Because This is Better than Eating

Kibbles and Bits

2008-03-10T04:29:54Z

Wishing I could quit stuffing my fat face. I do so good for a few days and then I let what everyone is telling me get to me, and I begin to eat. Then I go on a fat ass binge. This sucks. I have lost a little weight. I got on a scale today, and am so freaking dissappointed in myself. Shit that's it. I am fasting untill I get there. This sucks. Fat fat fat......

Tired of this crap

2008-02-07T20:29:20Z

I am so tired of being freaking fat. I have tried and tried to fast and do other stuff to make me feel better, or at least lose some of this blubber I am carrying around with me, but NOTHING helps. I am so freaking frustrated! I swear I am not eating anything untill I lose 20 LBS. Maybe that won't be too hard this time. I can feel and hear my stomach growling, and I actually like it.
I also wish that people who think they have an idea about my ed would get off of my back and realize until I am ready to get help, them force feeding me is doing absolutely NO GOOD! I will find ways to purge that crap that they think is good for me out of my body. Seriously, do they think it helps any to have to listen to them bitch and complain about whatever it is I am or am not eating? Do they really think it helps that when I finally do eat that they look at me like a fat cow until I just have to go throw up to get it out of me. And I have also recently become obsessed with my mirror. Which is the one place I should stay away from. When I look in it, and I see every inch of un-needed unwanted lard I just cry!! Girls please! I need a support group here!

Definitely need thinspro

2008-01-31T23:14:40Z

My goodness! I have done so well for the past week or so, today all I have had was green tea and lots and lots of water, but girls I definitely need some thinspro!!!!!! I am so tempted to go to subway, but can't because of my Liquid fast!!!!! GRRRR!!!!

Gotta get going

2008-01-22T19:03:08Z

OMG!!! I have blown it big time over the last few weeks. I will be starting a fast this week. I think I will be going for a 4 day, liquid fast. Jello and tea sounds good...lots of different flavors with no fat! Love you girls...If you feel like joining in Let me know...I could use the support

GRRR

2007-11-12T05:39:20Z

Why can I not focus? Not eating or restricting is no problem!!! It is when it comes to exercising. Plus my family is starting to figure this out. Now any time I am around them they all watch me like a hawk to make me eat. I come home and cry because I feel like such a failure. How to I appease them without ruining what I am trying to do?!?!

ugh

2007-11-09T04:20:10Z

why does everybody want to stick their noses into my business? Serously every person I know wants to monitor what I will eat.... IT IS NONE OF THEIR BUSINESS!!!!!!

e to get on track!

2007-10-31T23:29:58Z

I did so freaking well last month. Even up untill about a week ago. I lost a little over 30 lbs, but no, my fat ass couldn't keep losing weight. Now I am in a rut. I am in a weight loss rut and a food rut. Happy happy joy joy right? Not even close. I am going to go on ABC tomorrow. A new month a new start. Being a flight attendant it should be easy to stay busy enough not to eat. But Aynsley is coming into town....I'll just stock up on Sugar free jello I suppose....